She forgave things that were not accidents.
She explained tones, looks, threats, broken plates, locked doors, and the long nights when I sat awake with my shoes on because I did not know when I might need to leave.
Silas set his mug down.
“You got mouthy.”
“I got older.”
Linda’s face tightened.
“Maya,” she warned.
Not Silas.
Me.
Always me.
Because asking the dangerous person to stop was risky.
Asking the wounded person to stay quiet was habit.
Silas pushed his chair back.
The legs screamed against the tile.
He stood slowly, smoothing the front of his uniform shirt with two fingers.
“Say that again.”
I looked at him.
He wanted flinching.
He wanted apology.
He wanted the old shape of the room to re-form around him.
“I said I got older,” I told him.
For one second, nothing happened.
Then his hand came down on my shoulder hard enough to turn me sideways.
