The doctor said the word lucky.
I hated him for it for about ten seconds.
Then I understood he was trying to give me something to hold.
Daniel woke around 6:10 p.m.
His first word was Chloe.
Not my name.
Not where am I.
Chloe.
I put my hand on his shoulder and told him she was alive.
Only then did he cry.
He cried without sound, eyes squeezed shut, oxygen tube still under his nose, one hand reaching blindly for mine.
I told him about Lauren.
Not all of it.
Enough.
He turned his head away from me.
For a moment, I thought he was angry.
Then he whispered, “I should have told you she asked for money.”
“Yes,” I said.
It was not forgiveness.
It was not cruelty.
It was just the truth.
He nodded once.
“I thought I was keeping it from becoming your burden.”
I looked at him in that hospital bed, pale and wired and almost taken from us by somebody we had loved, and I wanted to say something beautiful.
