Miguel stirred. “What are you doing?”
“I can’t breathe in here.”
He rolled toward you, his face shadowed and unreadable. “Ana. Go back to sleep.”
“There is something wrong with this bed.”
“No, there isn’t.”
The certainty in his voice was more frightening than denial would have been. Because it didn’t sound like a guess. It sounded like a command.
You spent the rest of that night on the couch with a blanket wrapped around your shoulders, staring at the ceiling fan and trying not to say the thought forming in the back of your mind.
What if he knows?
You hated yourself for even thinking it.
Marriage trains you to defend the person beside you against your own worst interpretations. Even when the evidence begins piling up, even when instinct starts ringing like a burglar alarm, part of you still reaches for softer explanations. Stress. Depression. Shame. Maybe there was something medical going on. Maybe he had spilled something inside the bed frame. Maybe he’d hidden gym clothes and forgotten. Maybe your imagination, insulted so many times, was finally trying to prove it existed.
