The first week without Daniel is not peaceful.
It is louder inside your own mind than any house with him ever was. Every creak makes your shoulders tighten. Every unknown number on your phone feels like a trap. The rooms hold his shape even when he is not in them. His jackets still hang in the hall closet until Michael helps you bag them up. His shaving cream still sits by the bathroom sink. His cereal brand is still on the pantry shelf, bright and stupid and mundane.
What surprises you most is not grief.
It is how practical survival becomes. Change the garage code. Move the handgun box after the sheriff confirms collection. Tell Emily’s school there is an active protective order and provide copies. Meet with a counselor. Open a checking account in your own name only, because Daniel always insisted joint finances were simpler while somehow remaining more visible to him than to you. Safety is rarely cinematic. Mostly it is paperwork and passwords.
