The night of her high school graduation, when she was 18, I stood at the edge of the gymnasium floor with my phone out and my eyes embarrassingly full.
When they called her name, Ainsley walked across that stage, and I couldn’t hold back my tears. I clapped loud enough that the man next to me gave me a look. I didn’t care one bit.
Ainsley came home that evening buzzing with the kind of energy that only belongs to people who’ve just crossed a finish line. She hugged me at the door and said, “I’m exhausted, Dad. Night,” before heading upstairs.
I was still smiling, cleaning up the kitchen, when the knock came.
I clapped loud enough that the man next to me gave me a look.
I opened the front door to find two uniformed officers standing on my porch under the yellow light. My stomach went cold in that immediate, involuntary way it does when you see a cop at your door at 10 p.m.