“She looks nervous.”
“She was always nervous before big things,” my mother said, returning with water. “But she always did them anyway.”
I looked at her.
It was such a small sentence. Such an ordinary motherly thing to say.
It hurt more than an apology.
Leo accepted the glass. “Thank you.”
My mother smiled through tears. “You’re welcome, sweetheart.”
Sweetheart.
The word settled uneasily in the room.
My father leaned forward, elbows on knees. “Does Noah’s family know?”
“No,” I said.
My mother’s face crumpled.
“Diane doesn’t know she has a grandson?” she asked.
“No.”
“That woman mourned herself sick,” my father murmured.
“I know,” I said. “Do you think I don’t know that?”
My voice rose despite my effort to keep calm. Leo looked at me, and I forced myself to breathe.
“I was nineteen. Pregnant. Alone. You threw me out. Noah was dead. His parents were drowning in grief, and I had no proof except my word. I didn’t know how to walk up to a grieving mother and say, ‘By the way, your son left something behind.’”
