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One evening, we sat on the porch again while Cecelia kicked hard enough to make my shirt move.
Mark watched the spot for a few seconds, then rested his hand over it.
“If they can use anything when the time comes, I want to donate.”
I turned toward him.
The doctors gave him no more than three months.
“Please don’t talk about dying while she’s kicking.”
“That’s exactly why I have to, sweetheart.”
“Mark.”
His thumb moved slowly across my stomach.
“If I can’t watch her grow up, maybe somebody else gets more time with their family.”
“Don’t make dying sound noble. I’m already angry enough.”
“That’s exactly why I have to, sweetheart.”
His eyes lifted to mine.
“I’m scared too, Sal.”
“I don’t know how to do this without you, Mark.”
“You don’t have to know yet.”
“What if I never know?”
