My heart felt like it was being crushed by a hydraulic press. Why did I say it like that? I asked myself, the guilt washing over me in suffocating waves. Why did I have to play that cruel, arrogant game?
I had wanted to shock him. I had wanted to deny him a “loan” because a father doesn’t borrow from his son. I had planned to say, “I’m not giving you a single cent… because I am paying for the whole thing, and you are moving into your new home.” But the words had caught in my throat when I saw how frail he looked sitting on my expensive Italian leather sofa. In a split second of emotional paralysis, my voice had failed me, delivering only the devastating first half of the script. And pride—or perhaps sheer cowardice—had kept me from calling him back before he walked out the door.
