“No, Mom.”
Something in his voice put every hair on my arms up.
“If I save enough, we can get her back.”
“Honey — that’s not — people don’t work like that. You can’t—”
And he said:
“Then why did Daddy use money?”
I stopped.
I remember the exact quality of the light in that room. Late afternoon, through the blinds, in stripes on his rug.
“What?”
He looked past me, at the doorway, at the hall. Checking. My eight-year-old checked the hallway.
“The night you were sleeping at the hospital. Grandma went down to get a coffee and I went to find Dad.”
He lowered his voice.
“He was by the elevators talking to a lady.”
My heart started going in a way I could hear.
“He gave her a big envelope. A thick one.”
“Eli—”
