“I know,” he said. “I don’t expect you to forget it.”
“I’m not asking myself to forget it. But I can forgive you, Dad. I already have.”
He looked up.
“What I cannot do,” I continued, “is pretend that trust repairs itself because a judge ruled in my favor today. Rebuilding it will require time. Real time. It will require more than an apology in a courthouse.”
He nodded slowly and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand.
For one brief moment, he looked like an old man rather than my father.
“I understand,” he said. “I’ll give you whatever time you need. I just don’t want to lose you the way I almost did.”
We left the courthouse together.
The afternoon sunlight felt too bright after the hours we had spent indoors.
As we crossed the parking lot, I found myself adjusting my pace to match his slower steps. It reminded me of being a child, when he would shorten his stride and take my hand as we crossed busy streets.