I thought about my daughter, who would be here in four weeks.
I put the photograph in the letter, folded them together, and set them on the counter by the door where I kept things I needed to deal with and couldn’t yet.
Then I went upstairs, lay down on top of the covers still in my coat, and stared at the ceiling until it was dark.
My phone lit up on the nightstand.
A text from Ruth: *Please let me explain.
Please.*
I turned it face-down.
But I didn’t sleep.
I called the dental practice on a Tuesday morning, three days after the hospital.
I had rehearsed what I would say.
I had written it down, crossed it out, written it again.
In the end I said none of it.
“I’m trying to reach Diane Calloway,” I told the receptionist.
“It’s a personal matter.
My name is Sarah.
